Saturday, May 13, 2006
Friday, May 05, 2006
Housework
I've found a couple of household chores I like doing, isn't it amazing? Just discovered this Make-Your-Taps-Gleam cleaner in the toilet cabinet. I squirted it on and wiped - Ta-dah! Taps really sparkled! I wiped the rest of it all over the wash basin, and it's now gleaming away as well. I'm sure it's not supposed to be used for the sink, but oh well. Cannot waste. His mom must have put the cleaner there, I can't imagine Stu ever doing the toilet cleaning. There are also 3 other bottles that look like cleaning stuff that I haven't looked at yet. I should be cleaning the shower and tiles and toilet bowl as well, but I'm so excited that I'm on the PC writing it all down instead.
There is also much satisfaction cleaning my own hair brush. Yes, anything that is done in the house and not reading or computer related is considered housework. I like removing the hair and digging the dusty furry bits out one by one. Dunno how they get stuck in the roots of the brush in the first place.
There is also much satisfaction cleaning my own hair brush. Yes, anything that is done in the house and not reading or computer related is considered housework. I like removing the hair and digging the dusty furry bits out one by one. Dunno how they get stuck in the roots of the brush in the first place.
Good News
In a span of 3 days, I received 2 pieces of very good news! So happy for both of them, one's preggie and the other's engaged (with massive diamond ring). Ho ho ho!!! Very excited, cannot wait to plan trip to US for the wedding. And perhaps to Germany for Full Moon (Full Month?) Party??? ;-)
Monday, April 24, 2006
Public Holidays
I'm so lucky, only been here for a month and been paid for 3 public holidays already. The easter long weekend and today, Anzac Day. Public Holidays are good, got to achieve so many things today. Tidied up the house, vacummed, finally sat down to do my nails, and now on PC "socialising". Stu did the lawns, took out the tables n chairs for BBQ Party on Saturday, did his fishing rod up, and now has gone to the pub with Colby to "socialise".
Last night was good, we had Dana, Nath, and Colby come over for dinner. We served barbecued shark with blanched french beans and Stu's Mash Bake. I wanted to make mashed pumpkin and potatoes, but when I went for a shower, Stu's instincts took over and he turned it into something topped with egg, tomatoes, ham and cheese and ovenbaked. Dessert was warm Krispy Kreme Doughnuts (grilled under the BBQ) with vanilla ice cream and caramel topping.
Anyway, just wanted to show off the dinner we made. My contribution was boiling the french beans, potatoes and pumpkin to perfection. Well done!
Last night was good, we had Dana, Nath, and Colby come over for dinner. We served barbecued shark with blanched french beans and Stu's Mash Bake. I wanted to make mashed pumpkin and potatoes, but when I went for a shower, Stu's instincts took over and he turned it into something topped with egg, tomatoes, ham and cheese and ovenbaked. Dessert was warm Krispy Kreme Doughnuts (grilled under the BBQ) with vanilla ice cream and caramel topping.
Anyway, just wanted to show off the dinner we made. My contribution was boiling the french beans, potatoes and pumpkin to perfection. Well done!
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Weekends
This is the first time in the 7 years of my working life that I do not have to work saturdays. Yipppeeee!!!! There r so many things to do, for example
(10) Fishing up the coast with Colby
(9) A day on the water in Tommy's Dad's fishing boat
(8) Visit Kylie & Debbie in Newcastle and fish off Eddie's wharf.
These 3 items are of course Stu's favourite weekend activities, as they all involve the word 'Fish'. The only thing I like to do with fish is eat them, so I guess it's fantastic when he does catch some. Plus I love the water, and I can read my novels or magazines while he's fiddling with hooks n bait, so no complaints here. It's also good that his love for fishing is genuine, unlike the 2 goons in Brokeback. How I know this is because Stu has fishy magazines, print-outs of fishing boats for sale, and a $1k reel lying about in various corners of the house.
(7) Shopping with Dana
(6) Catch up with Stu and Nathan after shopping
(5) Catch up with unanswered email and gossip with friends on MSN
(4) Catch up on beauty sleep.
Don't ask me why I need to catch up since I sleep at 9pm every night. I just do. The weather here is shiok but can be drying, even with my Loccitane Shea Butter Lotion, my legs still feel papery, scaly, yucky. The beauty sleep is supposed to cure all.
(3) Go for walk or run in the park with Zuzu
(2) Housework & iron work clothes for the week ahead.
Don't really like to do these 2 either. Housework is ok, but I really hate ironing. A walk or run in the park is ok, but not when Zuzu knocks me over in excitement, trampling over me like I'm her toy.
And the Number One thing to do on Weekends in Oz:
(1) Have a huge, lovely breakfast, either home-cooked or from a nice cafe anywhere in Sydney! Salmon on english muffins w hollandaise sauce, bacon w fried eggs and hash browns, or a savoury spinach and feta cheese muffin, which tastes like Popeye's biscuits. With orange juice and latte. Yummy yummy yummy!
(10) Fishing up the coast with Colby
(9) A day on the water in Tommy's Dad's fishing boat
(8) Visit Kylie & Debbie in Newcastle and fish off Eddie's wharf.
These 3 items are of course Stu's favourite weekend activities, as they all involve the word 'Fish'. The only thing I like to do with fish is eat them, so I guess it's fantastic when he does catch some. Plus I love the water, and I can read my novels or magazines while he's fiddling with hooks n bait, so no complaints here. It's also good that his love for fishing is genuine, unlike the 2 goons in Brokeback. How I know this is because Stu has fishy magazines, print-outs of fishing boats for sale, and a $1k reel lying about in various corners of the house.
(7) Shopping with Dana
(6) Catch up with Stu and Nathan after shopping
(5) Catch up with unanswered email and gossip with friends on MSN
(4) Catch up on beauty sleep.
Don't ask me why I need to catch up since I sleep at 9pm every night. I just do. The weather here is shiok but can be drying, even with my Loccitane Shea Butter Lotion, my legs still feel papery, scaly, yucky. The beauty sleep is supposed to cure all.
(3) Go for walk or run in the park with Zuzu
(2) Housework & iron work clothes for the week ahead.
Don't really like to do these 2 either. Housework is ok, but I really hate ironing. A walk or run in the park is ok, but not when Zuzu knocks me over in excitement, trampling over me like I'm her toy.
And the Number One thing to do on Weekends in Oz:
(1) Have a huge, lovely breakfast, either home-cooked or from a nice cafe anywhere in Sydney! Salmon on english muffins w hollandaise sauce, bacon w fried eggs and hash browns, or a savoury spinach and feta cheese muffin, which tastes like Popeye's biscuits. With orange juice and latte. Yummy yummy yummy!
Friday, April 07, 2006
Life in Ozzie Land
5.35am - The radio alarm goes off. Stu loves to laze in bed for half an hour, whereas I have to get up, or risk dozing off for another 3 hours. Am getting used to snuggling in for another 15-20min though. This is one of the best things about being married.
6.10am - Have gotten washed & dressed. Make brekky, usually cereal or oats, sometimes muffins with vegemite. Make lunch to bring to work, usually sandwich, or leftovers from dinner.
6.30am - Leave home for work. Sometimes it gets bloody cold and I turn on the heater in the car.
7.00am - Reach the office.
6.00pm - Leave the office. Get into nice Camry. The only time in the day I feel thankful that I've got this job is when I'm in the car. Feel really tired and drained after dealing with the racist, several cocky young studs, questioning directors and mumbling foremen.
6.30pm/ 7pm - Reach home, depending on whether I've been to top up fuel or not. Try and help mother-in-law with dinner. If I feel helpless, I'll go lie down on lounge w hubby n watch some TV. Feed cat. Dump clothes in washing machine if they r overflowing from the basket.
8pm - Dinner can be baked chicken w potatoes n salad, bbq-ed steak or chops w potatoes n salad, chicken or fish w rice n stir fried veg, chunky beef pie w fries, or home-delivered pizza. Mother-in-law forces me to take 4 tablets of Nuskin herbal supplements, which I wash down with Virgin Mary.
8.30pm/ 9pm - Collapse in bed after dinner. Read 5 pages of novel. Fall asleep with the snores of Stu, or the sounds from the TV.....
6.10am - Have gotten washed & dressed. Make brekky, usually cereal or oats, sometimes muffins with vegemite. Make lunch to bring to work, usually sandwich, or leftovers from dinner.
6.30am - Leave home for work. Sometimes it gets bloody cold and I turn on the heater in the car.
7.00am - Reach the office.
6.00pm - Leave the office. Get into nice Camry. The only time in the day I feel thankful that I've got this job is when I'm in the car. Feel really tired and drained after dealing with the racist, several cocky young studs, questioning directors and mumbling foremen.
6.30pm/ 7pm - Reach home, depending on whether I've been to top up fuel or not. Try and help mother-in-law with dinner. If I feel helpless, I'll go lie down on lounge w hubby n watch some TV. Feed cat. Dump clothes in washing machine if they r overflowing from the basket.
8pm - Dinner can be baked chicken w potatoes n salad, bbq-ed steak or chops w potatoes n salad, chicken or fish w rice n stir fried veg, chunky beef pie w fries, or home-delivered pizza. Mother-in-law forces me to take 4 tablets of Nuskin herbal supplements, which I wash down with Virgin Mary.
8.30pm/ 9pm - Collapse in bed after dinner. Read 5 pages of novel. Fall asleep with the snores of Stu, or the sounds from the TV.....
Saturday, March 18, 2006
March Forth...
In my deliriously happy and high state, everyone seemed to be having fun. That made me happier than ever knowing we had the kind of wedding I've always wanted - where everyone could mingle and be as silly as they want to. (Photographic evidence however shows only 2 silly ones posing as Latino Lurvers) We managed to squeeze in both Chinese and Ang Moh traditions in that big day. Tea ceremony, Photo taking at Botanic Gardens, Chinese Banquet, Solemnisation, Bouquet and Garter throwing, Yum Seng and Speeches, and First Dance by Bride and Groom. Subing wrote that our wedding is like a 'fairy tale'...I know that Stu and I certainly felt this way ourselves. Our flower girls and flower boys, Er Yi and Uncle Jimmy, all our good friends and many others made 4th March an extra special day. We were touched by the generosity of our relatives and friends, be it in words or the help they rendered or their gifts and angpows.
My highlight of the night? When Stu thanked my parents in his speech, calling them mama papa. The solemnisation, "absolutely"! The video presentation that my brother did of our photoshoot was also a hit. Many people came up to me praising it. Meiyan made us a beautiful angpow box....I'm so so proud to have such talented family members. The flower girls' decoration of our bridal suite, the bubbles when we did our first march-in, the yum seng fight between the family, friends, and colleagues tables.
March Fourth was a long day that went by so quick. It was a beautiful day, and we savoured every minute of it. I still maintain that a perfect wedding is not important, but it seemed to me more perfect that it could ever be.
My highlight of the night? When Stu thanked my parents in his speech, calling them mama papa. The solemnisation, "absolutely"! The video presentation that my brother did of our photoshoot was also a hit. Many people came up to me praising it. Meiyan made us a beautiful angpow box....I'm so so proud to have such talented family members. The flower girls' decoration of our bridal suite, the bubbles when we did our first march-in, the yum seng fight between the family, friends, and colleagues tables.
March Fourth was a long day that went by so quick. It was a beautiful day, and we savoured every minute of it. I still maintain that a perfect wedding is not important, but it seemed to me more perfect that it could ever be.
Monday, February 27, 2006
My Hen's Nite 25/2/06
Dinner at Shashlik, followed by a night of dancing at Bar None.
First came the sweet invitation from the Chief Organiser, who is also my Chief Bridesmaid. I chose well as Meng has the most MisChief up her sleeves! The Co Organiser Apple arranged the dinner and booked us the table at Bar None. I rallied my cousins, who turned out to be a great hit with the Slut and Bitch.
I wore a veil all night at Bar None. (Meng had searched high and low for it and found it in HK). She got me some penis candy too. I was supposed to approach a guy and have a bet with him..." How many dicks do u think I can suck at one time?" Thank goodness she forgot all about it after we hit the dance floor. I was up on stage, had a little chat with NaNa, and had a guy serenade me with his weird rendition of She Will Be Loved. We had a great laugh, he was so sporting!
And then the part I'm a little bit proud of - I managed to strip 5 guys in total!! Only shirts off, but still got told off by the bouncers. The Slut and Bitch were 2 of them. Another one was the weird singer. The next one I knew was Pablo. And the last guy, I still have no idea who he is.
The best part of the night was Bitch telling everyone how he has known me for more than 10 years, and that he would do anything for me. And then Meng told them we have known each other for 17 years. That is really scary so I asked her to shut up. This is the mushy part - I was so high and happy, and couldnt stop hugging them all. My friends made me feel special. I know they were all happy for me, and thoroughly enjoying themselves. And I know sometime in my friendship with each and everyone of them, I must have done something good to deserve all this.
First came the sweet invitation from the Chief Organiser, who is also my Chief Bridesmaid. I chose well as Meng has the most MisChief up her sleeves! The Co Organiser Apple arranged the dinner and booked us the table at Bar None. I rallied my cousins, who turned out to be a great hit with the Slut and Bitch.
I wore a veil all night at Bar None. (Meng had searched high and low for it and found it in HK). She got me some penis candy too. I was supposed to approach a guy and have a bet with him..." How many dicks do u think I can suck at one time?" Thank goodness she forgot all about it after we hit the dance floor. I was up on stage, had a little chat with NaNa, and had a guy serenade me with his weird rendition of She Will Be Loved. We had a great laugh, he was so sporting!
And then the part I'm a little bit proud of - I managed to strip 5 guys in total!! Only shirts off, but still got told off by the bouncers. The Slut and Bitch were 2 of them. Another one was the weird singer. The next one I knew was Pablo. And the last guy, I still have no idea who he is.
The best part of the night was Bitch telling everyone how he has known me for more than 10 years, and that he would do anything for me. And then Meng told them we have known each other for 17 years. That is really scary so I asked her to shut up. This is the mushy part - I was so high and happy, and couldnt stop hugging them all. My friends made me feel special. I know they were all happy for me, and thoroughly enjoying themselves. And I know sometime in my friendship with each and everyone of them, I must have done something good to deserve all this.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Photo Shoot 20/2/06
"Mr Handsome, look here, left leg in front, chin down, SMILE!!!!!!!!"
"Beautiful, come here, errr...not like this, I think cannot work...."
This was what we heard the whole day. The photographer (Eric) did not bother to call us by our names. He did not make us laugh. Stu had to tickle me on few occasions. I think the funniest thing that day was Eric calling me "Ching Hui" as the last photo was shot.
Stu and I were creative enough to strike our own poses, but Eric did not like any of them. The poses we had to do were so stiff and uncomfortable and tiring, of cos Eric then proclaimed "Cannot, cannot. Too unnatural." and made us do another.
It was such a boring yet tiring day. I kept yawning and my eyes kept watering. Which means my fake eyelashes kept dropping and Regine, the makeup artist spent ages fixing my face. She was so patient and such a perfectionist, which I admired, and even bought lovely orchids to put in my hair.
For the outdoor shoot, we went to Esplanade and Punggol. Punggol was nice as we got to shoot with the lallang, the rocky beach and yachts in Punggol Marina. Didnt do the wakeboarding shots as planned as we were too tired and just not in the mood.
I think Stu had a worse time than I did with all the waiting. My brother too. I felt really bad for them - my brother had to take leave and yet couldn't video the studio process. He basically wasted half a day with us. He also had to drive his brand new precious car through the sandy lallang patch. Stu had to carry me, squat, run and jump, even though he wasnt feeling well. During one of the poses, he looked into my eyes and said 'I love you'. That was the sweetest moment, and our smiles would have been the most genuine then...
I expected too much from that day as so many couples told me that the photoshoot is the most fun part of the wedding planning! Still hope the photos will turn out well and can't wait to see them.
"Beautiful, come here, errr...not like this, I think cannot work...."
This was what we heard the whole day. The photographer (Eric) did not bother to call us by our names. He did not make us laugh. Stu had to tickle me on few occasions. I think the funniest thing that day was Eric calling me "Ching Hui" as the last photo was shot.
Stu and I were creative enough to strike our own poses, but Eric did not like any of them. The poses we had to do were so stiff and uncomfortable and tiring, of cos Eric then proclaimed "Cannot, cannot. Too unnatural." and made us do another.
It was such a boring yet tiring day. I kept yawning and my eyes kept watering. Which means my fake eyelashes kept dropping and Regine, the makeup artist spent ages fixing my face. She was so patient and such a perfectionist, which I admired, and even bought lovely orchids to put in my hair.
For the outdoor shoot, we went to Esplanade and Punggol. Punggol was nice as we got to shoot with the lallang, the rocky beach and yachts in Punggol Marina. Didnt do the wakeboarding shots as planned as we were too tired and just not in the mood.
I think Stu had a worse time than I did with all the waiting. My brother too. I felt really bad for them - my brother had to take leave and yet couldn't video the studio process. He basically wasted half a day with us. He also had to drive his brand new precious car through the sandy lallang patch. Stu had to carry me, squat, run and jump, even though he wasnt feeling well. During one of the poses, he looked into my eyes and said 'I love you'. That was the sweetest moment, and our smiles would have been the most genuine then...
I expected too much from that day as so many couples told me that the photoshoot is the most fun part of the wedding planning! Still hope the photos will turn out well and can't wait to see them.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Goodbye My Lover
I hear this at least 3 times a day. We call it the Funeral Song at work, cos he sounds so mournful. I thought I'd be sick of James Blunt's voice in a week, but I am still singing along with it and loving the lyrics, especially the 'I know you well, I know your smell'. I am a smell person!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
New Year Resolution No.11
11. Forget his bloody ex and concentrate on living happily ever after with him!!!
The Ex
Sickened to think that if he had not told me, we would have ended up at Eddie's place for our honeymoon! Our honeymoon!! How he could have suggested it in the first place is beyond me, unless he is really not bothered by whatever memories the house would bring. I felt like saying I DON'T CARE IF U HAVE NO MONEY NOW, I JUST WANNA GO SOMEWHERE NEW AND EXPENSIVE FOR OUR HONEYMOON. It took a moment for his words 'I just wan everything to be perfect for us' to sink in. I do too. And I have to stick to my principle - Weddings and honeymoons need not be perfect, cos what's most important is the marriage life after.
Why can't I get over her? How can I tell him that I wan everything in his house to be stripped of all memories of her - furniture, colour of the walls, decorations. At least the label on the phone with her name is gone, along with the beautiful chinese inspired ornaments she bought. I wonder how she would feel if she knew he's gonna marry a real chinese, and not a turkey bird who loves chinesey things.
Yeah, I even have to scrape Turkey off my list of Must-Visit-Countries. And all clothes made in Turkey? Forget it, i'm saving the money.
See, it's so clear the problem lies in me. I don't think he loved her that much anyway (or am I in denial? Duh...) He has actually done all he could to make me feel like his house is mine too. And deleted and removed anything I asked him to. And told me the truth whether I asked or not. I'm just a stupid green eyed monster!!!
Breathe. Sighhhh. Everybody has a past, the fact that she had lived in his house for 7 months just made it more difficult to forget. I just need to somehow erase the negative images my overimaginative mind makes up. As if my past is that great. Sighhh.
Why can't I get over her? How can I tell him that I wan everything in his house to be stripped of all memories of her - furniture, colour of the walls, decorations. At least the label on the phone with her name is gone, along with the beautiful chinese inspired ornaments she bought. I wonder how she would feel if she knew he's gonna marry a real chinese, and not a turkey bird who loves chinesey things.
Yeah, I even have to scrape Turkey off my list of Must-Visit-Countries. And all clothes made in Turkey? Forget it, i'm saving the money.
See, it's so clear the problem lies in me. I don't think he loved her that much anyway (or am I in denial? Duh...) He has actually done all he could to make me feel like his house is mine too. And deleted and removed anything I asked him to. And told me the truth whether I asked or not. I'm just a stupid green eyed monster!!!
Breathe. Sighhhh. Everybody has a past, the fact that she had lived in his house for 7 months just made it more difficult to forget. I just need to somehow erase the negative images my overimaginative mind makes up. As if my past is that great. Sighhh.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
New Year Resolution
1. Increase distance of morning jogs
2. Drink more water
3. Don't let MiMi bully me
4. Don't be lazy to keep in touch w family n frens
5. Invest in good skincare products
6. Save save save $$$$$$!!!!
7. Make Stu quit smoking
8. Experiment more in the kitchen
9. Write more 'poems'
10. Build killer abs
Heeheee ;-)
2. Drink more water
3. Don't let MiMi bully me
4. Don't be lazy to keep in touch w family n frens
5. Invest in good skincare products
6. Save save save $$$$$$!!!!
7. Make Stu quit smoking
8. Experiment more in the kitchen
9. Write more 'poems'
10. Build killer abs
Heeheee ;-)
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Happy
This year has been exceptional in that I count my blessings all the time. The biggest one is phenomenal, once-in-a-lifetime, and what I'd only thought to be in my dreams only. That is, being proposed to in the most romantic way, by the most wonderful man in the world.
"There are times I am bewildered by each mile I have traveled, each meal I have eaten, each person I have known, each room in which I have slept." (Jhumpa Lahiri - Interpreter of Maladies)
It has come to this, despite my failings and mistakes, and not too few moments of despair that I could not be as lucky or happy as I'd like. I can't help being afraid that it will come to an end, sometimes I just can't believe my luck. But for now, let me revel in this. Let me be happy. Let's talk about the future when it comes.
It's true, I couldn't see my future until I met Stu.
My family have been so supportive and great. I no longer feel my mom loves me less, and everyday my brother does or says something to show his maturity. It's a great feeling to be proud of your family.
My friends...Pearlyn being the only one who knows everything about me, accepts me for what I am, even with her high moral standards. I could not ask for more. Meng, my dearest animal friend, who is going to fly all the way from USA to be my bridesmaid..she said, "I would not miss it for the world". Iris, ever willing to go all the way to help. Bryan, I dun even need to say much, for I know he will not judge me. Todd, my ever favourite gossip partner. Apple, still in her own world, but endearing and giving in her own generous ways. These are the few people I will miss dearly when I leave.
Colleagues are genuinely happy for me and excited about my wedding. Even Param, learning that she and Sangeeta have specially bought saris for the dinner warms my heart. KK is gonna try to come back from HK for the big day too!
........I've never received as many blessings and bouquets as I did this year.
"There are times I am bewildered by each mile I have traveled, each meal I have eaten, each person I have known, each room in which I have slept." (Jhumpa Lahiri - Interpreter of Maladies)
It has come to this, despite my failings and mistakes, and not too few moments of despair that I could not be as lucky or happy as I'd like. I can't help being afraid that it will come to an end, sometimes I just can't believe my luck. But for now, let me revel in this. Let me be happy. Let's talk about the future when it comes.
It's true, I couldn't see my future until I met Stu.
My family have been so supportive and great. I no longer feel my mom loves me less, and everyday my brother does or says something to show his maturity. It's a great feeling to be proud of your family.
My friends...Pearlyn being the only one who knows everything about me, accepts me for what I am, even with her high moral standards. I could not ask for more. Meng, my dearest animal friend, who is going to fly all the way from USA to be my bridesmaid..she said, "I would not miss it for the world". Iris, ever willing to go all the way to help. Bryan, I dun even need to say much, for I know he will not judge me. Todd, my ever favourite gossip partner. Apple, still in her own world, but endearing and giving in her own generous ways. These are the few people I will miss dearly when I leave.
Colleagues are genuinely happy for me and excited about my wedding. Even Param, learning that she and Sangeeta have specially bought saris for the dinner warms my heart. KK is gonna try to come back from HK for the big day too!
........I've never received as many blessings and bouquets as I did this year.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
My family
I love my family more than anything in the world. (Stu is part of the family now). Seeing any of them upset makes me sad. Seeing all of them upset at the same time breaks my heart. At least last night I was crying over something really important to me and not over some idiotic PUB goons. I hope my brother will always have the guts he showed last night to apologise and explain his actions. And dad...I dunno what to say...how to tell him that he is stubborn and unreasonable and should show more love n concern to his son and wife. Keeping quiet, running away or making stupid hurting remarks are not ways to solve problems (although I'd probably inherited his keeping quiet n running away traits). Did he really understand my bro last night? Would he continue to shout at him unreasonably?
We are one family and should stay as one. We may be weird and not affectionate or whatever, but the underlying thing is we all care for one another and should rememeber that whatever happens.
We are one family and should stay as one. We may be weird and not affectionate or whatever, but the underlying thing is we all care for one another and should rememeber that whatever happens.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
About HP
She's known as the bitch, and it's easy to see why. Call me kaypoh, but I'd always wondered why some people turn out this way. Maybe it's her karma. Maybe she's just plain unlucky. Maybe she's not strong enough to fight off situations after situations. Maybe she's just too tired.
What would I be like in her position? Being a single mom, with a mother who vents her frustrations on her all the time, suffering from one failed relationship after another. I would never know as I'm not in the exact circumstances. My mom may be a bit biased but I know she loves me in her own way. I have several failed and traumatic relationships, but I felt that with every failure, I learnt and grew so much that I don't become bitter. I'm not a saint and I've done terrible things. But I would never again do things that I do not want done to me.
Someone should tell her that she's acting exactly like her mom. Venting her frustrations from failed relationships on hapless colleagues and strangers. Sometimes her behaviour turns people off, and when she realises that people are against her, she becomes worse not realising that she caused it in the first place. It's a viscious cycle.
Someone should tell her that she should seek happiness from within herself, and not from guys. I believe she feels that they are the answers to everything, so she goes all out to make the man happy, without first thinking if he is the right one for her. Being wild is one thing, but being labelled as 'loose' is another altogether. Whether she is or not, who would want a long term relationship with a slut? Even if someone is attracted to her, after they get what they want, she can be disposed of. All moms warn their daughters about that, and it's true.
Do I have the guts to tell her all these? If I do it would be after I quit, cos she'll probably hate me for that!
What would I be like in her position? Being a single mom, with a mother who vents her frustrations on her all the time, suffering from one failed relationship after another. I would never know as I'm not in the exact circumstances. My mom may be a bit biased but I know she loves me in her own way. I have several failed and traumatic relationships, but I felt that with every failure, I learnt and grew so much that I don't become bitter. I'm not a saint and I've done terrible things. But I would never again do things that I do not want done to me.
Someone should tell her that she's acting exactly like her mom. Venting her frustrations from failed relationships on hapless colleagues and strangers. Sometimes her behaviour turns people off, and when she realises that people are against her, she becomes worse not realising that she caused it in the first place. It's a viscious cycle.
Someone should tell her that she should seek happiness from within herself, and not from guys. I believe she feels that they are the answers to everything, so she goes all out to make the man happy, without first thinking if he is the right one for her. Being wild is one thing, but being labelled as 'loose' is another altogether. Whether she is or not, who would want a long term relationship with a slut? Even if someone is attracted to her, after they get what they want, she can be disposed of. All moms warn their daughters about that, and it's true.
Do I have the guts to tell her all these? If I do it would be after I quit, cos she'll probably hate me for that!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
KK's gone..
I miss KK. Didn't feel the 'pang' until the last moment, when he wailed 'Mei Nu!!!' and gave me a hug. 6 years of fending off stingy bosses, unreasonable colleagues, misbehaving workers and evil stooges together. 6 years of covering each others' asses, doing stuff that we each knew the other disliked. I'll never find a colleague as responsible, funny, and endearing as him.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Love
"She filled her palm of her hand with a lil water n held it before me, and said this, "u see this water carefully contained in my hand? it symbolizes love." As long as u keep ur hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if u attempt to close ur finger around it, n try to possess it, it will spill thru de 1st crack it finds.
This is the greatest mistake that people make when they meet love, .. they try to possess it, they demand, they expect, .. and just like the water spilling out of ur hand, love will run from u., for love, is meant to be free, u cannot change its nature. If you love someone, allow them to be free beings.
GIVE and DONT EXPECT
ADVISE, but DONT ORDER
ASK, but NEVER DEMAND
It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime to truly practise. It is a *secret* to true love. To truly practise it, u must sincerely feel no expectations from those who u love, n yet an unconditional caring.
Maybe this is applicable for all of us.. "
I copied this from somewhere, till now I'm struggling with keeping a good balance. To me, unconditional love only applies to a mother's love for her child. For us mere mortals and normal beings, we can only try our best. How many times have I said to myself, I'm so glad I found him, he is the best thing that happened to me and I will not let a day go by without him knowing that. Yet I can take things for granted, sulk for the littlest reasons, and expect him to shower me with love and attention every single moment we are together?
I would say to my guy friends and colleagues, what a girl wants is very simple. 3 A's? Affection, Attention, Appreciation. Uh oh..maybe there are more...Adoration, Admiration, Assurance.....without all these, we would just be ANNOYING.
And what a guy wants? To be free. Trust is very important here. He taught me to trust, and be trusted. I can safely say that he can do whatever he wants, and I know he'd have done nothing to make me fret.
This is the greatest mistake that people make when they meet love, .. they try to possess it, they demand, they expect, .. and just like the water spilling out of ur hand, love will run from u., for love, is meant to be free, u cannot change its nature. If you love someone, allow them to be free beings.
GIVE and DONT EXPECT
ADVISE, but DONT ORDER
ASK, but NEVER DEMAND
It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime to truly practise. It is a *secret* to true love. To truly practise it, u must sincerely feel no expectations from those who u love, n yet an unconditional caring.
Maybe this is applicable for all of us.. "
I copied this from somewhere, till now I'm struggling with keeping a good balance. To me, unconditional love only applies to a mother's love for her child. For us mere mortals and normal beings, we can only try our best. How many times have I said to myself, I'm so glad I found him, he is the best thing that happened to me and I will not let a day go by without him knowing that. Yet I can take things for granted, sulk for the littlest reasons, and expect him to shower me with love and attention every single moment we are together?
I would say to my guy friends and colleagues, what a girl wants is very simple. 3 A's? Affection, Attention, Appreciation. Uh oh..maybe there are more...Adoration, Admiration, Assurance.....without all these, we would just be ANNOYING.
And what a guy wants? To be free. Trust is very important here. He taught me to trust, and be trusted. I can safely say that he can do whatever he wants, and I know he'd have done nothing to make me fret.
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